Lately i find myself staying up at night just laying in bed thinking. About a lot of stuff actually, there’s not really one specific thing. I mainly think who honestly cares about me. If i was in the hospital…who would come visit me? Those are the things i think about when i should be thinking how grateful i am for the life i have now , which i am grateful for, its just sometimes i feel like no one really gives a shit about  me. I mean i have my two best friends in the whole world Sara and Rachel but i feel like i’m from another planet sometimes. And don’t get me started on relationships…its seems that no matter how much effort i put into a relationship i get lied to, deceived, cheated on, used, and just fooled by all these assholes! I don’t mean to sound depressing or whatever i just feel like letting it out is better than holding it all in you know?